I usually love the winter, I grew up in Northern Canada I kind of have to. But, this year has taken a toll on me. Don’t get me wrong, I do love the winter. It’s beautiful and I’m so grateful to have grown up in a place where I get to experience all 4 distinct seasons.
But, sometimes it feels like I’m trapped under water and I don’t know what way is up or down. I panic for a while, but then I just let it happen. I’m just letting it happen. I feel like I just want to sleep, and I’m not motivated to do anything. Lack of sunlight, and not being able to spend time outside isn’t something I’m able to live with, especially for almost 5 months of the year.
But I’m fine. This feeling is temporary, and does not control me. I can feel sad, without being sad. I have gotten through this before and I’m so close to getting through this season once again. I can’t wait for spring to come around.