Hola my friends! My bubble has burst, Christmas break is over and it’s back to school for me. I have enjoyed my time away from all the stress of finals coming up, but I am now panicking over the fact that I somehow forgot everything from this semester over the 2 weeks I had off. Great.
These past 2 weeks have really changed my way of looking at life. I honestly don’t know why, but they have. I have struggled with anxiety based around school most of my life. And I will for the rest of my school career, and probably into my working career as well. But, over these past 2 weeks of being home alone, stress free, I have had time to think about why I feel it most with school.
I realized that I let anxiety take all the control of me. I never tried to stop it, I always thought that if I just ignored it, maybe it would stop. But you can’t ignore anxiety. It is an emotion that demands attention, and will stop at nothing until it has your attention. I realized I let so many opportunities run past me because I never took charge. I just submitted to the anxiety and let it control me.
With the ending of this semester and the beginning of the next soon, I am going to work on controling anxiety, instead of letting anxiety control me. Will it work the first time I try? Probably not, or the second and more than likely not the third. But it will eventually, and thats what matter to me at the moment. At least I am going to try.
“Fall down seven times, get up 8.”
P.S. this got a little more deep then i thought it would when i sat down to write it. sorry.